I've found a new low. The place I thought I'd never see again? I just passed it and kept going.

I'm at the place where you just feel like crying and you wish you could feel anything, even pain and you feel like you're going to throw up any second. The place where all you want is a hug and a shoulder to cry on and yet you don't want to see anyone at all. The place where all your body's needs feel like they need to be taken care of and yet, you're not going to help. Especially hunger. I'm starving but I'm not going to go eat. I probably wouldn't be able to hold it down anyway. It hurts enough to make myself wake up enough to type. There's no way I'll make it through today. My body and mind is revolting.

Good night.